Today is his B'dae, hehex.. i give him the 12am sms thingy XD b4 tat i already gave him his present.. l0lx~ actually, even if he juz give mi a sms or juz a 1min call, i already veri happy. i meant totally overjoy and crazy coz i will jump up and down.. hahax.. this few days to me, i dun feel like holidays, it's more like normal schooling days. But i can meet him, that's enough i guess. i wonder why stars keep hiding from me, i cant seems to see it nowadays. but still sadness do come by few times, depression do drop by and visit me... haix.. i wonder when i can really live happily ever after.. maybe nxt life time? l0lx, or when im in heaven with god. Maybe bah.. hahax.. but still happy, i cant cry infront of him even though how sad im! but juz keep smiling and laugh.. l0lx.. but truely, i wanted to ask myself a thousand times.. DO I LOVE HIM? most of it is yes.. but can i ensure it's forever? maybe forever no longer in my dict. maybe rite? but i really hope tat it would last! kekekex... ok end here le... buaix~
