Long time no see.. on Wednesday, October 11, 2006
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I haf been veri long away from blog and updating.. but i wrote one.. maybe it will be nice to show but past is a past =]
24.08.06
Today actually im dam dam dam quiet in school, maybe juz too much problems are covering my mind.I now wonder, how is he now.. haha, stupid rite? i saw his friendster testimonal. someone wrote to him if he is still waiting for "this girl"I wonder if he found new love? stupid me, broke up already wat, but still i admit, i do miss him a little here and there.problems dun seems to go but more trouble and problems are coming up. i cant even finish one problem, another pop out. friendship is the most rocky one i bet, haha.. my relationship in school with friends also can counted as bad bah but i dunno how to handle anymore..I miss kelvin korkor alot, b4 he went to NS, i still got one person to tell all my problems and trouble to, but now, haha.. lonely bah. Kelvin korkor, u faster come back, haix.. i know u busy with ur police acad things so i dun dare to disturb u. Last time also got Bro jeff to tok to.But now he, haix.., sick bah, dun wish to disturb him alot and worry him. i know he cares alot too ^^, but still.. dun wish to bother him bah~My studies now are catching up again, so i really wanted to focus on it but i seems to always slp in class no matter how i wish i was awake.i feel like stuffing food into my mouth and my stomach untill full full de.. haha.. I always feel so moody nowadays, when can i felt happy again?I was happy a few months ago but now, my thoughts and feelings are taking over. i felt abit tired at times but i know there are some thing or someone who will be disappointed if i do so. I really miss those past times but i know time will nvr turn back, life still need to go on so i must press on! i always tell others tat tough time build one person up. Since i can say tat so i must also proof it! Har!! Charge! kill all those troubles and problems!!! kill kill kill!!! eh, god? is killing troubles and problem a sin?haha.. =P hopfeully not or i cant kill them le =[.. childish me.. haha.. i felt quite better now!! Woot XD, but still a little here and there.. but nvm!Writing all this stuffs allow me to let go of some stuffs here and there.. haha..
11/10/06
Nowadays, I'm So confused.. Although i haf put down relationships and allow past to past. but now, i realize that i haf feeling for "him" ( another him ) he is K.. cant believe it? yeh, tat rite.. he is a veri caring guy but still, his heart only haf tat gal... but nvm.. life still goes on, god haf plans for my future.. =]
I'm so worried about my N level result but i know, Abba, will give me the best result ^^.. This few days, i haf been in the bad term with layhwa too.. dunno y, maybe she dun like to share secert like i do.. haha, but nvm lo.. i only wish she could be really happy and faster find her happiness too.. =]
Lizhi and me is no good still, but nvm, if she really wan to be good terms with me, i dun mind.. but hopefully it's truely from her heart bah.. I still haf my best buddies like jasmine ar, raphael ar.. hehe.. now i got new spects.. of coz i look beta [ wink wink ] hehe...
I today and ytd went to play pool, my skill improved, but today abit special coz i went to watch movie, Rob-B-Hood!! Veri veri de veri funni.. hahahahaha.. it was veri ver interesting.. jackie chan not bad at joking neh!!
Ytd, i tok to CL ( last time de "him" ) he still as good bah i guess... hopefully he can find a GF soon.. haha.. as for me.. should i wait for him or not? but i know his heart dun even haf me.. he jzu treat me as a MEI! but i shall not say it out.. if continue like this... juz let it continue be Zhu korkor and Zhu meimei bah.. maybe like this is beta.. =] enjoy his laughter, jokes and cares.. isn't it nice? of coz it do..
Haha.. enjoy all this days, all this holiday gonna be a blast!! Holiday Oversea, Hong Kong, Having Steamboat at Jasmine house, K-boz with hwa and jasmine and rap.. havent confirm.. but soon, steamboat will be the first!! yeah!!!
Laughter is the best medicine!! So Smile And Laugh!! =] =P XD X]
