Unclear, Mistaken, Hopeless, Failure! on Thursday, December 21, 2006
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Unclear of my thoughts which was all running in my mind, from friendship to kinship to relationships and of coz studies.
Friendship:i felt so useless, failure in all friendship. Maybe friends was meant to be by my side? Kinship:Dam it! i hate my dad for having a step mom and a BABY dam step bro! Not becoz of them, i'll not feel so dam dam dam cold at home and dam dam dam NO LOVE. Hate them! HATE THEM! Who she think she is to controll my dad till all money goes to her? she can buy TONS of rubbish, y cant i juz buy one STUFFS out of SO MANY YEARS!? Relationship:I dunno if "he" feels anything for me although we do jokes abt it between ourself. James kor wasnt the one i looking for anyway. He is a veri nice and kind guy indeed but, he juz not my type of chocolate!
Mistaken by James kor was a bad thingy, he now doesnt acknowledge me as his mei anymore. maybe this is fated bah. I hope tat another " him " will not mistaken me oso.
Hopeless, tat's me. I'm so hopeless from all the problems. Jas has her own problems and she was oways away nowadays. Rap dar is busy with his work and dunno wat ever thingy. kel was working. No one willing share my burdens. Ha! Handling by myself = learn lots of priceless lessons.
Failure as a friend, as a daughter; family member, as a normal girl too. why am i so weird and oways seems so idiot due to my stupid hyperactive looks? i hate being so hyper and happy even when I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL.
