Recently.. i have been thinking alot... and lazy alot... and so unfocused... RAWRRR!!
U See, my friend here has been "introducing" guys to me or "matchmaking" for me. but i just dont like it... I still remember what Jinli told me, maybe it's because he treat me too nice till i still cant forget/fallen for him. Honestly, i admit it cause he still tingling around my mind here and there.
I really wanna get one but no one really interest me.. Oh! My workplace, there's really a cute guy *COUGH* but too bad he is a malaysian (ok i'm "racist") LOL... off topic *COUGH*
Sometimes when i look up to the sky when i walked back from the bus stop, i cant help it but to remember him. He is very boyish cute but also very heartless at times. Sometimes i wonder.. what will happen if i didnt meet him before, knowing him, getting close to him. AND all my EX-boyfriends who i either hate or they hates me LOL~ it just work this way..
Or is it my standard has turned high? or i really gave up having one but still think of getting one? ok rubbish me. i must be real tired mentality that i cant even focus while i work, has been doing alot of mistakes, not remembering things.. been said by my manager. i just feel... emotional in my way for this few weeks, i doesnt know what happened or what's really in my mind that occupied that space.
I admit, i miss him though.. he might not be the same but still.. i miss him. you know what? after a few years, i read back this post, i might be laughing hard about myself which i did when i re-read my posts. But for what i know, this is really how i felt right this moment. i miss being in love with someone who cares you alot.
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