Recently.. i have been thinking alot... and lazy alot... and so unfocused... RAWRRR!!
U See, my friend here has been "introducing" guys to me or "matchmaking" for me. but i just dont like it... I still remember what Jinli told me, maybe it's because he treat me too nice till i still cant forget/fallen for him. Honestly, i admit it cause he still tingling around my mind here and there.
I really wanna get one but no one really interest me.. Oh! My workplace, there's really a cute guy *COUGH* but too bad he is a malaysian (ok i'm "racist") LOL... off topic *COUGH*
Sometimes when i look up to the sky when i walked back from the bus stop, i cant help it but to remember him. He is very boyish cute but also very heartless at times. Sometimes i wonder.. what will happen if i didnt meet him before, knowing him, getting close to him. AND all my EX-boyfriends who i either hate or they hates me LOL~ it just work this way..
Or is it my standard has turned high? or i really gave up having one but still think of getting one? ok rubbish me. i must be real tired mentality that i cant even focus while i work, has been doing alot of mistakes, not remembering things.. been said by my manager. i just feel... emotional in my way for this few weeks, i doesnt know what happened or what's really in my mind that occupied that space.
I admit, i miss him though.. he might not be the same but still.. i miss him. you know what? after a few years, i read back this post, i might be laughing hard about myself which i did when i re-read my posts. But for what i know, this is really how i felt right this moment. i miss being in love with someone who cares you alot.
~.~ i think there's a problem with me nowadays, i just cant stand how immature ppl are. Hey! i dont mean that i'm mature, i'm not and i admits it. i meant those people who are way childish than me. regardless of ages! ok, if you are younger than me by 2 years at least, i understands but if you are like older than me yet more childish than me. gosh, u need a reality check. wait, i meant mature check. whateeverrrr!
i'm doing fine at workplace, at least i think so, at first day i felt so uncomfortable over my job. as for now >:) i pretty likes it :D hope i can likes it for at least a few years. My manager is a nice lady, and she kinda funny with her humor. she will say something that praise herself indirectly lol! she likes to tell me things like (in chinese duh) 我們人見人愛，也不可以那樣噢~ LOL (direct translation) Even if we are cute, we cant do these. LOL!
ok self entertained XD~ have been obsess with some youtubers nowadays, with Ryan higa and Kevjumba! they are so cute, i meant their humor LOL! as usual, my favourite is... SIMON AND MARTINA! :D they are awesome! even though some immature kpop fans hate them! oh well, they are great ok! they love kpop, but they view in a way that kpop fans wont (i meant obsessing with idols and thinks everything is good as long as it's done by their idols) *COUGH* ok enough! shall update the nxt time :P with my poor command of english/singlish/chinese~ buwahhaha~
Holla! weather has been freaking hot nowadays! i have been wearing tanktops and stuff yeah. Next week i gonna start my work so i went out with jinli to get office wear, 3dresses, 1blouse, 1blazer and cost me 130bucks! XD~ but pretty worth it though i'm pretty broke~ boohoo~
On our way home, we was talking abt study, career and kinda of alittle abt future. Honestly, it's had to make decision but... we need to make one.
although i have plans on studying again, but the cost and course made me shove the idea aside. I hate accounts~ but if i gonna study higher dip, i would need to touch on accounts. turn off... LOL X3!
working for years and not getting higher in studies would not be a benefit for me for long term. would still need to study. Haiz... headache headache! XD
Hallo! Back once again after the long months of idling~ Life is getting boring for me, nothing much happened. Yesterday i read back the old posts of this blog, realized how much i have grown. Oh well, i has been reading my old blog post here and there. So... how much have i grown? LOL!
Oh well, just hope i get a job soon~ gonna work hard play hard :D! Felt thankful to things in my life ^^ i have learned how to appreciate things, at least i dont blame lots of things on different ppl like i do when i was young. maybe in the future time i read back this post :P i might feel myself stupid XD~
I updating this blog with a new blogpost and a new blog skin ^^~ how long has it been i changed my blog skin anyway~ I think lots of ppl abandon their blog years ago. Gosh! why am i even back X3! Updated with songs too! LATEST songs of my favourite female band! and... i saw them LIVE! waahahha! too much of idol chasing! but but but.. i have lesser passion now X3. i told my friend, kpop now is boring =X too similar among groups... oh well i still love kpop ^^~ ok contrasting my words LOL.
actually have been thinking alot, i was wondering what should i do for my future? hey, i'm not like 15,16, i'm already 21. i ought to do something for my life. Start early right? LOL. i dont know.. it's pretty confusing, guess i take a step at a time... wait, since when i think further? i has been taking a step at a time, staying real comfy at my zone. i cant seems to step out of it.
Guess i'm still not mature enough, hey! at least i dare to admit right? My English and Chinese has turned worse. gosh... got to sleep. let's see when will i update again ^^
Has been long since 5566 appeared again. After they kinda disappeared. I really love this song apart from their so many songs. LOL. oh well. it's soon to another year once again. i guess every year i would do the same thing. how many years have i done these? i dont remember honestly.
Let's just get started and to write down my resolution for 2011, not planning to write anything about 2010 this year ^^ so yeh..
2011, i wanna look for a job (as usual for every year?) and to go learn korean, which i didnt manage to learn it during 2010. and to continue dancing. Earn enough to go for a trip in taiwan and maybe to get a boyfriend? LOL! Lastly, to get back to school hopefully by 2012. It doesnt seems easy for the last one but at least i shall try. Haha..
My brain is not working~ so i doesnt really know what to write. so let's end it here >< LOL
It's raining so heavily today. I wonder have i deserted my blog here. but i guess not since i'm updating it now right?
The cold weather season is here again, so that means it's another year ending soon too. There's too much things happened in 2010 though. And officially i'm 2 years single. Idol chasing has taken over the empty space of not having a partner.
On another hand, my grandpa seems to be recovering well too. So i'm also looking for a work too, slowly, not too rush anyway since there's no one at home apart from my grandma while my uncle is working. I guess i'm somehow grown up again over matters.
At some point of time i might be feeling to cry but never did cause i believed that everything would go smooth after these. It was an experience of cause. I knew a few new friends too, they are pretty nice to me though i doesnt really talk to them much.
Sometimes small things really remind me of him but to me, he is another stranger. HE no longer the same so do i. We have changed in some ways here and there. I doesnt know if these changes are good or bad but i know at some point in our life, we grew up.
Have you look around at those people that are around you. Have they changed? It's more like did u accept what they are now? Humans, always confusing much but sometimes you would just wish everyone is much more simple.
It has been long since i update again, it wasnt that i doesnt want to update but it was because my CPU died on me for quite a period of time. I'm getting a new one soon though after my birthday ^^.
Soon it's my birthday, 20th. I wondering how much ppl have actually in the past life of mine actually stay? Those people that i have thought they are so precious that they would be like forever? One of them is the same surname guy. funny right? Questioning over things again and again. IT would never end, it never meant to end anyway.
I have resigned from the company i worked for a year since the boss is a pig :D Oh well, i can look for a new one anytime though. I just wait for a while after all my Korean idols came and left?
Honestly i miss the same surname guy if he ever read here. i want to tell you... GO DIE LAH! Can you stop being so emo? Cause u didnt know that there's actually ppl thinking of u in a good way? i meant it, i miss those good days not the bad one. apparently i having a big problem, i still cant forget that idiot. That's all...
